That’s what she said.

October 31, 2010

Gosh… I´m to stressed to blog, I’ll get better I promise.

It´s now 5.39 a.m. I woke up for a nightmare and now everything’s to scary so I can’t go back to sleep.

I guess it’s a chance to workout. I’ll have to get the courage to wear a bikini soon… >.<




October 28, 2010

This post is going to be about nothing.

I feel empty. I got nothing inside me. I have a hard time just showing emotions, and I’m the one that smiles all the time.

I think I need a break. A break from everything.


October 26, 2010

Went to hell.

Tomorrow’s a new say. I’ll go to sleep now, and let the new day come.

New opportunities is what I need right now.

I’m gonna get skinny.



October 23, 2010

Kill her.  Snap her neck. Rip is throat into bloody shreds.

This day.

October 23, 2010

It went ok. In 24 hours. I ate 4 pieces of candy, and 5 pieces of chocolate.

Also, I used my feet all day. I walked, and walked and walked.

What if.

October 18, 2010

What if I was thin.

What if I turned pretty.

What if I got all the best grades.

What if I got the guy I wanted.


Would I feel perfect? Or would I be the usual miserable self?



My day. My life.

October 16, 2010

Gosh, It feels like I’m never posting anything on my blog.

I miss this. Though I’m to stressed to being able to blog. Today I did all my homework in the morning, so I got som spare time. Which means that as soon as I’m done blogging I’ll go out for a run. Gosh, it’s almost summer here!

Though autum is my favourite season. I really miss it. When the leaves goes orange and it get’s colder and colder.

I’ve gained a few pounds again.  I’m now a 131 pound giant. Well, the more to loose the more sucess.

That’s all I have to say my dear readers.

So stay strong, and I’ll try to post more often!

Gosh, used alot.

August 28, 2010

I’m gaining weight by the way. It sucks. It’s just my stupid family that’s suddenly getting this spontaneous  urge of kindness, and buys me pizza (two days in a row) and chocolate. I feel horrible. I want to throw up. But I can’t. My reflexes just stop when I’m trying. Gosh, I hate my entire body!

The one thing I usually’s proud of is my brain. I’m smart, really smart really. But at my new school, I’m the dumbest person. Seriously, I’ve never felt this bad before. Ah, I’m gonna cheer me up with some thinspo instead.

Laugh alot gals, while you can. Gosh I’m depressed.

August 21, 2010

I’m so sorry I’m so slow on updating… I’m just… I dunno.  Today I took out my moms  measuring tape, it’s in centimeters so I’m pretty damn confused. But its way to much anyway. I just realised I got fat arms too. I’ve never thought I had fat arms. They’re 24 cm wide… O…M…G! I have to do some push-ups soon  I can really feel my arms getting fatter and fatter right now.

I’m to scared to go on the scale today though. What if I haven’t lost weight? I’ll feel like a total… failblob. My friend said yesterday that she weighted 117 pounds, she doesn’t even work out! Ah, the world isn’t fair I guess.

Stay strong! xoxo

I’m here.

August 20, 2010

And I’m fricken tired.

I’ve lost weight anyway! It has to be that horrible flight, thank god for gross food. I didn’t eat a thing! Only drank water. Gosh I feel good.

Even though my weight is way to much. 127.4 pound, hopefully 127 on sunday.

Wish me luck.

And, I’m sorry I haven’t posted in a while. I’m so tired, jetlag.