Miss him.

June 29, 2010

I miss him so much. My best mate, that always can make me smile, and stop caring about what I’m eating, and make those voices who cries when I look at food, stop.

I promise myself, that the next time I meet him, I’ll have lost 5 pounds and we’re gonna celebrate that by eating a pizza. Cuz, he’s worth it.

T.T

June 28, 2010

I had a day full of frozen soda. A lot of calories I know. But so fricken good. Except that it was only a small portion breakfast that entered my oversized belly.  But there’s no good reason that I ate that stupid icysoda, it was only 54 degrees… It’s winter goddammit….

Well, anyway Im just a big bloated blob… 

This post makes prob. no sense at all… Sorry for that… But I’m so stressed… All my family is home… And…they’re sneaky…

Stay strong!

Boaw woah.

June 28, 2010

It's all about their looks, right?

Well, today wasn’t such a horrible day.  That voice that cries any time when I come near some food didn’t even wisper a ‘no’ today. It made me confused, and a bit happy. Though it’s missed.

Even with the voice gone, I still ate less than a normal person, but I didn’t overeat. And the run and trampoline excersize was just to forget. As soon as I got on my trampoline my back started to hurt really much. Mom said that it was just that I’d excersized to much, but I know that it was that I’m to fat to jump on the trampoline. What else would it be? Anyway,  I’m just lying here on my beg, sulking, I want to run! And get thin!

Well, I guess that it should be a thinspo night for Poucette tonight. I hope that you all have an awesome night, training hopefully.

Be strong! / Poucette

Mushaboom

June 27, 2010

 


			

Half day.

June 27, 2010

It’s already past 12 pm, and I’ve already binged. I ate a lot of Icecream… And I ate breakfast! I usually never eat breakfast. Why did I do it today? I’m such a failure!

Anyway, yesterday we put up our trampoline. So this summer, I’ll jump my self into shape.  They have acctually proved that if you jump 15 minutes, you train a lot more than if you jog 30 minutes. So If I do both, I’ll get fit and thin in no time.  Wish me good luck!

I got to tell you, that body will soon be mine!

Stay strong everyone! <3

Fighting.

June 26, 2010

That’s all I’ve been doing today. Fighting with myself, with my family, my friends, and my urge to eat. And I can truly say, I lost every fight. I binged every hour this day and now I feel all bloated.  Right now, all I can hear is my friends voice, imitate Smeagols voice, saying “stupid fat hobbit” over and over again. I have to get this voices out of my head! They will only disapear when I’m running…

I’m sorry if this post doesn’t make any sense…

It's a huge shit sandwich, and we're all gonna have to take a bite.
If I could mix your tears with burnt herb. I'd inhale your pain.
If I could
I'd write again, with that friday night binge.

Look away.

June 26, 2010

Can’t explain what I’m feeling
But I came this far
To take your hand
Help you understand why I’m always wanting more
Lissie -

Pics. Me like.

June 26, 2010